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Bet on it!

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If you know anything about my son, you should know this. He loves High School Musical. He loves the songs, he loves to dance, he knows literally nothing about the storyline. He has no idea what really happens in the movies, but he knows every move that has been choreographed for High School Musical 2 and a good part of both High School Musical 1 & 3. He knows them so well, in fact, that he has started picking apart the people in the group dances who made mistakes in the movie. It’s plain crazy, I tell ya!

What kind of concerns me is not Gmail’s obsession, but the fact that I have started realizing that those songs are influencing my thoughts. Aside from singing them all day, every day, I am now thinking, “Whoa?! That song means something to me!” Now that, my friends, is reason for serious concern. Ha!

The song that is really hitting me right now is Bet On It. The words struck me yesterday, they hit me right in the gut. I felt like I had been tackled by a linebacker on the 20 yard line. (Is that really how football works? lol) The words were strong, they were intense, they were what I needed to regroup and take this bull by the horns.

The lyrics are here. After you read the lyrics, I will explain why they hit me so hard.

Bet On It lyrics
Songwriters: James, Tim; Armato, Antonina;

Everybody’s always talking at me
Everybody’s trying to get in my head
I wanna listen to my own heart talking
I need to count on myself instead

Did you ever
Lose yourself to get what you want?
Did you ever
Get on a ride, then wanna get off?

Did you ever push away the ones
You should’ve held close?
Did you ever let go?
Did you ever not know?

I’m not gonna stop, that’s who I am
I’ll give it all I got, that is my plan
Will I find what I lost? You know you can
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it
(Bet on me)

I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say?
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it

How will I know if there’s a path worth taking?
Should I question every move I make?
With all I?ve lost, my heart is breaking
I don’t wanna make the same mistake

Did you ever
Doubt your dream will ever come true?
Did you ever
Blame the world and never blame you?

I will never
Try to live a lie again
I don’t wanna win this game
If I can’t play it my way

I’m not gonna stop, that’s who I am
(Who I am)
I’ll give it all I got, that is my plan
(That’s my plan)

Will I find what I lost? You know you can
(You know you can)
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it
(Bet on me)

I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say?
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it

Hold up, give me room to think
Bring it on down
Gotta work on my swing
Gotta do my own thing, hold up

It’s no good at all to see yourself
And not recognize your face
Out on my own, it’s such a scary place
The answers are all inside of me
All I gotta do is believe

I’m not gonna stop
Not gonna stop ’til I get my shot
That’s who I am, that is my plan
Will I end up on top?

You can bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
You can bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it

I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say?
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it
(You can bet on me)

© WALT DISNEY MUSIC COMPANY;

Everyone talking at me, translates to me as the internet. I am constantly reading, searching, trying to find the one piece of information that I have yet to discover. I am trying to find the answer that I am looking for. I talk to Chad, my mom, professionals,  friends, other parents of children with special needs. I want them to tell me what to do next for my son. I want them to tell me that being on the autism spectrum and possibly having early onset bipolar will go away, or at least tell me exactly what to do to make Gmail happy. They can’t. I have to listen to my own heart, I have to search my own soul, and pray for God to fill me with the right answers to help him. No one else lives in our house, no one else has the children we have, the family we have, the needs we have. No one else can give me the answers or tell me what to do. When it is all said and done, Chad and I have to make that final decision.

Yes, there are times I want to get off of this parenting ride. It’s hard, dog gone it! It is so hard, I have lost myself so much in trying to hold on during this ride that, yes, I have pushed away my good friends in many cases. I have lost touch with people who are important to me and I miss them.

The next several verses can be summed up in just a few words. I will not give up on helping my son. I will not give in to the demon that is his disability. I will do whatever it takes to help him. Those decisions might not always be the easiest, they may not always be what everyone else would do, but he is my son. He is the one that Chad and I were blessed with 9 years ago on that cold November night. He is my heart, he is my life, and I will not let his disability take him away from us. I will never stop fighting!

I do need room to think, I do need to look deep inside myself to find the answers to some of my questions. I need to look in the mirror and remember who I am. I need to remember what I am made of, remember the strength and fortitude that God has given me. All the while, I also need to remember that I have friends and loved ones who care for me. I need to remember not to push them away. I need to remember that we are not in this alone. They are here to hold us in the hard times, laugh with us in the good times.

So, today is the day that I work on my swing. Today is the day that I turn my life around. I will move forward, remembering that I have friends and loved ones who want to support us, but not looking to them for answers. Instead, looking to God and myself for the answers.

I would like to end this post with a Bible verse that has been dear to my heart since I was a little girl. This Bible verse sums up God’s gifts in nearly every aspect of life. Fear is not only of the dark or monsters under our bed. Fear is of the unknown.

II Timothy 1:7  For God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, of love, and of sound mind.

Life is good, God is good

One thought on “Bet on it!

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